Early Morning Revelations
I was up early this morning walking and talking. I spoke to God for a good 25 minutes about some things that were on my mind – as if He did not know. But it was rewarding to imitate those in the scriptures who daily depended on God in prayer.
Also, it is an amazing thought – if we would stop to think – that the God of the universe is the God who hears. As with all thinking, this helpful thought could be a deadly thought if I were to think I must therefore be special in and of myself. I am what I am because of God. But I have grown to recognize the awe of it. God hears me through the one mediator, Jesus Christ, and not just me, but perhaps billions of people who are like me in their need of God. Mind-boggling.
So I finished up my walking and talking and I was able to be still for a few minutes and I asked God to speak to me. I don’t want to just talk, I want to listen. (Make sure you understand that I believe the first and primary way we do that is by reading and hearing the Bible.)
Long story short, I was thinking about a funeral, and then a wedding, and then I realized as though a light bulb came on, that I love the praise and approval of people. Now I already knew that. After all everyone is narcissistic on some level. But to know it and to be able to pinpoint it vividly via past actions was helpful.
Am I now cured from wanting the praise and approval of people? No. I will have to die daily and surrender that to Christ as the Spirit reveals it to me progressively. But awareness is necessary for response and change.
Now you are not my priest and this isn’t just a cyber-confession. I wrote this in part to help those who might read it. So here are some parting and probing questions:
- Are you listening to God in His word? Do you know the word of God well enough to know when God is speaking to you about specific situations in your life? I think we are sometimes scared of saying things like I wrote above because we are afraid of the abuse of “God told me.” It’s a possibility, but so is the possibility of the abuse of ignoring God out of fear where something might go. If we know the intention of God’s word we can guard ourselves from revelatory sensationalism and abuse, while having confidence that God really does speak to us as He did Philip in Acts 8 and Peter in Acts 11 – to name just a few.
- Do you humble yourself and ask God to speak to you? Some of us have not because we ask not (James 4).
- Do you ever slow down and have moments of silence (Ps. 46:10) so that you can mediate on God’s character so that you can think about your thoughts and actions in light of who God is?
- Has God gently and lovingly corrected you lately? Has He revealed something to you that would bring you to the point of responding to who God is? If not, then why not? We know we are children of God when we experience the loving correction of God (Hebrews 12).
God wants to change us, but we cannot be changed if we are ignorant about the change that needs to happen. Have you known God in His word and listened? Ask and you will receive (Matthew 7).